User blog comment:VikingFyre/Night of Introspection/@comment-7706473-20130803105136

Rant away; it is always better to speak such dreams now; among friends and those who might listen, for such moments are rare and to be cherished. I have no idea where you are in life right now, but I will say this; that your ability to carve out a small happiness at least quarantines those feelings, somewhat. Where I would be without my garden and soil I do not know.

Perhaps one day we shall grow lucky, and times will change, and the earth will go green and red and the sky will open up - but ah, I'm just daydreaming now. Good luck, and I hope the inner pain has subsided - even if just a little.