Thread:FlakyPorcupine/@comment-6830263-20141018200151

Quite a long while actually... I'm not her to defend what I did (twice). Quite honestly... I consider myself to be a terrible person and that's an understatement. To this day, I still have absolutely no reason for why I left and every reason I would come up with in the future, would simply be an excuse. I fled like the coward that I am, twice, and for no reason. I stayed away, because I was unable to face what I did, but recently, I found renewed courage and I do think that you at least deserve a message. I'm not dead (I said in a horrible attempt to lighten the mood a bit), though I understand if I am to some now. Nothing but a memory. A good one, a bad one, completely up to you. All I want you to know, is that I have nothing but good memories about you guys, all of you. So many good memories that the fact that I ever left still boggles me. Because the chat messages don't get saved, I can't get all sentimental on you by saying that I have read our messages many times, but I do still think about you guys a lot. I know this probably doesn't help at all, but I feel incredibly guilty for what I did and I'm not expecting any of you to forgive me. Whether I'll come back or not after this message is a hard question, because I'm afraid to dissapoint you guys again. Maybe it's best to simply remain a memory.

Anyway, that's it for this message. I don't have much else to say, but I will say that I miss you guys a lot and I mean that.

Bye... 