Perfection

I wish to be perfect...I mean in way that cannot be obtained by normal means. I wish to be absolutely flawless at every little last thing I do. I don't care how I get it and I most certainly will do anything to get it. My name is already perfect so it is a start. Joshua couldn't be a more perfect name.

I really do love how wonderful my life is. My parents, my friends, my town, my city, my state, and my dog they are all perfect. I however, do not feel perfect. Whenever I try to write about something lovely, extravagant, invigorating, and just outright unforgettable it never works.

None of my perfect people in my perfect life find my work perfect. I find it so infuriating! How the hell can someone tell me that my work is imperfect. I am perfection itself! It is impossible for me to not be perfect! I should inherent my parents perfection! I would kill to obtain my writing perfection!

My family has never understood my anger and I. I'd pace angrily back and forth as they laughed and spat at my sloppy handwriting. My lack of detail. My lack of able to bring in the final punch! The killing blow! I wish to murder my work if it means getting a good ending! I burned my past writings!

I burned it all! Every last bit of it! I'm sick and tired of this family! Of my perfect friends! My stupid mutt! Every single last one of them could be sacrificed to the damned angel of the bottomless pit of despair! I was searching online for a way to be rid of my perfect life!

If I took away everything that was so perfect I could finally be perfect! That's it I shall burn down my and their houses while they sleep! I shall do it in the name of the angel of the bottomless pit! I would have to wait until night if I wished to fully use this to full effect.

I think I might wait actually. Maybe there is another way without be ridding of everything. Perhaps I could speak with this angel I have been looking up. Perhaps I can summon him! Perhaps I can get him to do this all for me.

So I began drawing the sign to summon him when my parents entered the room with concerned looks. They stopped me from drawing it and started looking at what I was doing on my computer. They had sad looks and must of been shocked as they simply said nothing to me.

They took away my computer. I no longer had the means to fully summon him without the references so I didn't screw it up. They were going to have me visit a therapist. I was beyond pissed but I had to deal with it. I would fake getting cured of whatever mental disorder they thought I probably had. After that I would finish my plot to destroy our house and the others that mocked me.

Once they had a meeting setup I did put up a fight with them. However, I was quickly put in the car and was on the way to the therapist. Once there I tried running away but to no avail. I looked at the therapist with a mean glare.

The therapist says "So what has been troubling you lately?"

I say "My family is so damn Perfect!"

He writes down on his paper and I feel uneasy about that. I get up and punch him in the face hard."I bet you wrote I've got a damn problem!"

He looks scared and runs out of the room and gets the security and have me kicked out of the office. It took what felt likes hours for me to run away to somewhere far away from it all into a nearby woods. I entered this clearing where I saw a snake that was up in a tree eating bird eggs.

I was intrigued by this sight. I watched as it mercilessly devoured the eggs. The snake then moved in an odd way in such that it was staring at me. I stared back and was feeling tempted to stay around and see what it wanted. What the hell was I saying it was a damn snake. How could it say anything?

The snake said "Hello Jonathan."

I jumped back and rubbed my eyes. No one else was around but that damned snake. It was talking to me! There was no way a simple snake could just speak like some ordinary person! However, that couldn't explain that I heard it talk to me.

The snake said "Ssssilly little boy, you have lost your way. Lissssten here I can help you obtain perfection. You must make a deal with me though. You must burn down the homes of your friends and family. You must wipe away your past to obtain this future."

I said "You have yourself a deal, um whatever you are." I was sure then that the snake was the angel of the bottomless pit. The angel guises as a snake to look unsuspecting. I remember that from the article I read online. "But how are you here I didn't summon you?"

The snake said "I am whenever there is someone with a hole in their heart. I live within the hearts of all. I fill in that hole by making deals with them. That is why they call me the angel of the bottomless pit. I will be watching you from afar so don't try anything funny."

I said "I won't I will act out on nightfall.That way they cannot escape."

The snake said "You'll be perfect soon enough."

I nodded and walked off towards the closest store that sold gasoline and matches. I arrived at the store within 30 mins. or so and saw how many I could carry. I bought them along with the matches. I then exited the store and headed home.

Soon it was nightfall and everyone in my neighborhood was asleep at this time of night. I started with my house and started splashing it with gasoline. I then lighted the match at it and it began to instantly lighting on fire. I watched as the house slowly went ablaze. I moved to the next house not looking back.

I walked towards my friend's houses and one by one lighted each and every one of them on fire. Luckily I had enough for the last house. I headed towards the woods in a sprinting manner. I didn't look back and assumed I done my job well.

I found the snake in the same spot I saw him. He was smiling. His big human like teeth were rather jarring but the rest of him looked like a snake. The angel was a rather interesting being as it didn't even show me it's true form.

The angel says "You have done very well. However, I am going to tell you something silly boy. You cannot obtain perfection. There is no such thing as perfect. Everything has a flaw including perfection. I cannot give you the unobtainable."

I said in a pissed tone " You lied to me! Wait a second... oh god no. Fuck that's right another name for the angel of the bottomless pit was Satan." I saw my own body get set on fire as the snake disappeared. I dropped and rolled on the ground screaming.

A newscaster says "A police report found the culprit who burned down the many houses of the neighborhood. They traced his fingerprints to the gasoline tanks left behind. They found him in the woods rolling around like he was on fire..."

Court day arrives and I am having to testify for what happened during the night I burned down my friends and family's houses. None of them survived from it. No one could defend me except for my lawyer. He wasn't on my side either though I could sense it. I described in detail what occured. I was tried as an adult and sentenced to life in prison despite my lawyer's efforts.

In prison I had no room mates. Then I saw him again the angel of the bottomless pit above my bed. No one else seemed to notice him. When I entered my cell I was attacked by him. He bit onto me and I was fighting to get him off. Things were going dark and quickly I fell down.

The warden wasn't quick enough to save the prisoner from choking himself to death. As he couldn't find the correct key in time since he walked away when it happened. Long after he was given a burial survice. No one attended his funeral...