Hate Me...

I stood there at the cold slab of rock that came out of the ground. It said a name I knew would change my life forever. It said your name, Grace. Your name may have written on the polished stone, but I knew you had to be still alive. I refused to believe what everybody told me. I dont care if the laws of nature say its impossible to live beyond the grave. I know that if there is a heaven, you must be there, where else could you be?

All that I have now is the cold darkness that I have only brought upon myself. You promised me you would never leave me, Grace you promised me. You were once my beaken through the cold lies and darkness of this world. Now all im left with is darkness, no more light. You were once my angel.

Its been 2 years since I last saw you, please return to me! how do I live? give me the strengh to battle these raging tears. Have I been blind this whole time? Maybe if I close my eyes you will be there with me again. How many prayers have I done already? maybe im just a fool, maybe im worthless, maybe I havent even earned the light you have showed me. Its been too long, How long must I wish for you to be here a again. I thought I could have happiness for the first time in my life. What a fool I was!

Teach me to live. Give me the strengh to fight the cold darkness. The darkness took advantage of me, maybe im too weak. Im too weak to live in this world. I am meant to be killed. I heard screams behind me, they were horrid screams of fright and surpirse as if I was a monster. I saw someone take out there phone. As I pulled out of my a jacket a silver object and placed it in my mouth, it was cold to the touch and it smelled of death. I need to end this darkness, I cant stand to not see you anymore. Im sorry Grace please forgive me!